enterthemirror | young adult friction (Reply)

hello dear reader. tired and have a headache and not really in the mood to post but i figure i should anyways. not doing incredible today. OH also christmas happened that is meant to be notable. i am not a very jolly person... sorry christmascels. anyways. i really need to shower. i am meant to go out tomorrow and i don't really have a choice over it but i don't really want to. bleh i feel bad for being emo in this post. i'm just still a little scared. i'm not meeting with my therapist or anything and meeting a psychiatrist literally made me feel worse and talking with my parents keeps making me feel worse and ugh. i just feel a little overwhelmed. i don't know. i love talking with my friend and my girlfriend and everyone else i like but i can hardly bring myself to do it and i feel bad over it. i don't know, blejh... i hate being emo and sounding concerning but it is not going well. i am not doing as bad as i was a week or so ago but this isn't reassuring to me whatsoever. blehfhh. i don't really have anything else to talk about :( i mean, i do, i just don't feel like it. i guess i should still post regardless. i'm just scared. i don't really know what else to say about it besides that i am scared. i'm in bed now which is comfy and i'm going to continue to get comfy and thennn i don't know. sleep early maybe??? that'd be good. goodnight for meow :)