mort à crédit
Tuesday, December 30th, 2025 03:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
enterthemirrorhello dear reader. i waited to get reallyyy tired and comfortable in bed before deciding to roll over and get my laptop so i could make a blogpost. fun! surely all this blue light won't do anything to me. :3. i really am tired though. i'm a little emo but too tired to, like, reallyyy put my heart in it... the most i can do is romanticizing suicide but WHO WANTS TO HEAR THAT. cough. nothing fun has really gone on so far. like, there are things i have enjoyed, but they're not really great subjects of conversation, you know? the most notable thing is i went catatonic for like a day and refused to speak or move or eat or drink or anything. and that wasn't really enjoyable :(
been listening to lots of music, which i guess is fun. it's all been metal stuff which is a little... eh... i'd like to listen to more fun happy joyous music but it eludes me currently. i'm too tired to even give a good ramble on *music* which is, like, my forte. EW while i was making a topster i heard like a mouse in the wall next to me. IM SCARED. i'm an adult i'm not scared.
ok hi topster. there is more black metal that i have been listening to it is just not here because it's a lot of different albums and i haven't been listening to them very critically. some of them are undoubtedly a little sketch but i download it all illegally anyways and i've been being a good leftist and reading lots of Dauvé (when i can. is this an oxymoron?) so i don't really care very much. too tired to do a big analysis. ummm classical screamo classical, likeee indie rock i guess (!) black metal black metal, and video game ost (i'm so sorry) black metal black metal. there's your abridged analysis.
anywayssss i do kinda wanna romanticize suicide, but like... this is not the time or place. i don't reallyyy think i should get into that kind of thing at all but i do really wanna. i would like to lie to myself and say that voicing it here will make me less likely to think about it but the opposite will actually happen. i don't knowwww bleh. i also obviously don't wanna be concerning and that is kinda a concerning thing to do qwq. can't i just have a little fun? i'm so fun. :3. bleh okay i really am tired. goodnight for meow dear reader :) okay before i go to bed i want to say i read a little more and now i am not thinking of killing myself. just tired. and my lips are chapped. okay goodnight for realsies :)
been listening to lots of music, which i guess is fun. it's all been metal stuff which is a little... eh... i'd like to listen to more fun happy joyous music but it eludes me currently. i'm too tired to even give a good ramble on *music* which is, like, my forte. EW while i was making a topster i heard like a mouse in the wall next to me. IM SCARED. i'm an adult i'm not scared.
ok hi topster. there is more black metal that i have been listening to it is just not here because it's a lot of different albums and i haven't been listening to them very critically. some of them are undoubtedly a little sketch but i download it all illegally anyways and i've been being a good leftist and reading lots of Dauvé (when i can. is this an oxymoron?) so i don't really care very much. too tired to do a big analysis. ummm classical screamo classical, likeee indie rock i guess (!) black metal black metal, and video game ost (i'm so sorry) black metal black metal. there's your abridged analysis.
anywayssss i do kinda wanna romanticize suicide, but like... this is not the time or place. i don't reallyyy think i should get into that kind of thing at all but i do really wanna. i would like to lie to myself and say that voicing it here will make me less likely to think about it but the opposite will actually happen. i don't knowwww bleh. i also obviously don't wanna be concerning and that is kinda a concerning thing to do qwq. can't i just have a little fun? i'm so fun. :3. bleh okay i really am tired. goodnight for meow dear reader :) okay before i go to bed i want to say i read a little more and now i am not thinking of killing myself. just tired. and my lips are chapped. okay goodnight for realsies :)
