chance meeting on a dissecting table

hello dear reader!! i am very tired. i missed the thing i had to do this morning but honestly i don't mind that i missed it. it would be nice to have gone out and done stuff and probably good for me but i also just want to not do anything. i feel like i need something to do... not just, like, currently, but generally. i need a rip-off Throbbing Gristle to be a part of or something.

i feel (and look!!! my face is betraying me) awful... i need to just stay in the library all day i think. being in my dorm kinda sucks. idk. i am nawttt going to do another angsty post but it is so dire i really need to either get better immediately or kill myself immediately because the alternative is doing badly at everything for who knows how long. blehhhh. at least i showered!!! that is a win. i cant listen to music because my hair is drying but its okay i will live (for now). blehhlbleh. i might cut this short or else i will get too angsty too quick. this room is making me violent so i am going to get dressed and go to the library and just do nothing for a little while. maybe i will watch another movie?? i saw one good one and one... kinda overrated one. i feel a little movied out. maybe i will try to take a nap. i don't know. if i go out i should eat but nothing is open and i have been reading too much about hunger strikes and BLEH idkidkidk i am going to make myself get up.

ok dear reader. thank you for reading all of my loser-y posts lately. soon i'll have fun ones . . . i want to do something this weekend but i am running out of time. we'll see. okay. goodbye for meow :)