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back from town. i actually went out hooray! it was rainy and sort of dismal but i'm still glad i went out. i like walking around in the rain! i took the bus so i didn't really exert myself much but it's okay. i got some food and little nutrition bar things and an entire tiramisu cake which i intend on eating by myself over a period of multiple weeks. i just got like... the bars, cake, a monster (which i havent had in forever), umm chips + lame jarred salsa, yogurt, andddd donuts which i ate. i like donuts i dont care if theyre bad for me. my roommate was also in town and we ran into each other at the store. but he biked in + out because he is a little loser. why do i have so much animosity??? i'm glad i went out though. i don't really know whatttt to do now... i really should be productive but it's hard. especially when my roommate doesn't understand the concept of a shared room so he is audibly singing with earbuds in. so i guess my two options are listen to his shit music or listen to him repeat his shit music. fun! i'm just listening to LCD soundsystem (who i love) very loudly. [edit: i just realized. is "internet seekers" in Losing My Edge (amazing song) a reference to soulseek like 2 years after it was created? of course James Murphy knows ball... so i wouldn't be surprised!] if i wasn't a pushover i would use my speaker more to " mog " him as the kids say. i don't care what anybody says LCD soundsystem are so fun. i haven't seriously listened to them in like years so this is a good lil travel back in time. ok he really has to quiet down. sorry for being an asshole roommate butttt cmon let's respect each other a lil bit here. next time he leaves for like 1 minute i am putting something annoyingly atonal on the speaker until he quiets down. does this count as pavloving him? i forget psychology. negative reinforcement? ok i looked it up i think it is negative reinforcement. thank you intro to psych class. you know i actually enjoyed that class because it was all like biology and neuropsychology and operant conditioning and things like that which are more like... factual observations about the body/brain. at least i think operant conditioning is. i think it is! it works on like every animal, so... must be pretty factual. only at the end did we talk very briefly about made up sounding stuff about disorders and personality types and the like. so it was actually kinda enjoyable! also the professor was really great. anyways i am in a bit of a better mood despite the fact i should be thinking about work. at least i have tomorrow off. okay i am going to... idk what. listen to more LCD soundsystem and think about having some mid chips and salsa. OH also there's this brand of salsa that everyone likes that i think is okay (i forget what it's called) that i only discovered *after* moving to a what seemed to be a white ethnostate in western mass (it was such a downgrade of a move. i <3 holyoke massachusetts). due to it being all white people they only had "medium" at the supermarket which is like... okay. but here i found the hot kind! it was out of stock but next time i go i will try it if it's there. this is so banal i hope that's okay. isn't that what this is for? i need to start having more revelations. i would love to be spoken to by like some sort of sexy ethereal deity thing but i think that'd make me a hugeee asshole hippie. anyways. goodbye for now :D