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enterthemirrormy drug addict boyfriend (who people think was like 23. he was not grooming me that was other people) had this username like forever and i only just realized it is from the Supa Hot Fire rap battle. anyways! cold open today. i realized i was too emo yesterday to write a good blog post, so i'm doing it again. just by taking a cursory look at this blog, you may realize i am not *good* at blogging. i feel this is evident in the fact i don't know what to call you besides "dear reader". henceforth i'll be trying some stuff out and we'll see how it goes. i also don't know how inserting images works so we'll try that.
hello... i didn't think of a name for you yet. hello, you! i was just thinking about how it used to be *warm*. i can't remember that at all. i do actually like the cold---i bundled up a lot today and it was nice except i feel and look a little disheveled. but that's okay. had a Chinese midterm... i think i did... okay??? i feel like i crushed the written part, did okay on the little multiple choice reading response things, and threwwww the listening response because i didn't know THAT was also multiple choice. it's okay. i still have faith i will do good in that class but i was reading Baudelaire earlier and was like... why didn't i just do French?? i'm already like 10% able to read Baudelaire and 0% able to read anything in Chinese.
speaking of reading, i really do want to read more! chatted with someone briefly about some political lit and they seemed pretty knowledgeable and interesting and i actually want to talk to them more about like... random things because they seem nice (predictably, the stalinist took me to the side after our conversation and went "i really don't like them..."). i feel bad because i genuinely can't remember if they are transgender or not because i think it was brought up once and everyone just theythems... them. i really don't think this person goes by theythem exclusively, though!!! hopefully i don't look too horrible here, sob. she is very interesting and next time i encounter her (which neverrrr happens outside of club stuff unfortunately) i will have to talk more because we talked about Lyotard and the cover to Anti-Oedipus and Lukacs and Fisher. i don't think (more accurately, all i can say is that i don't *know* if) she's, like, gaga over all of them, but the fact that she knowsss who these people & things are is very fun and i'd make conversation with her over it even if she hates them JUST because she knows what they are. she probably knows more about them than me!!! also i got to talk about "can dialectics break bricks" for like 5 seconds yesterday LOL which was fun. did not expect people to have seen it but i guess it makes sense! i should rewatch it. my comfort maoist movie.
hm. i put a lot of thought into that and now i can't remember what i was going to say! i kinda like talking about banalities. people loved when Kafka did it. how many times have i seen posts of his journals where he's going They hate me or My stomach hurts or Masturbation frightens me? i need to say more things like this here. i'll talk about music!!! very banal. anyways i messaged EWWW this convenience store sushi is bad. i'm throwing it out after this. anyways. i messaged the drug addict boyfriend who i THINK is clean which is fun about this band i've been obsessed with. they have a very gay name but they're fun. "crimson evenfall"... my name is ebony dark'ness dementia crimson evenfall way... anyways they're a black metal band but they're the kind i like where they seem to only sing about magic and fantasy and hating christians and dorky shit as opposed to... looking and sounding like idiots (war metal, nsbm). a song called "throne of sorcery"? little scandinavian dweebs. they really are so good. i normally hate keyboards in BM as they always sound, just... bad and forced and as if they're included because they're *meant* to be cool. but they're simply not! they're fucking synths!!! despite this view, a few crimson evenfall songs have keyboards, and i feel like they're the *platonic ideal* of what keyboards in BM should be. there's this one called "searching the wisdom" (they're finns, forgive them) and it is actually so crushingly good. it's like four chords on a synth and it's just soooo good. i always feel a little embarrassed being into BM because i feel like the two paths are that you listen to nazi bands, or you're some sort of mass shooter. or both. i also do not want to associate with the nasty angsty sort of internet gen-z BM fans who listen to BSoD and stuff.
short paragraph. i really want to get this game but paypal fucking hates me so i guess i won't :( it seems so cool, too!!! i heard about it a few years ago and it seems to be unchanged since then which is a bit of a bummer because it is a v fun concept and it should continue to get love. it's called "world of horror" and it's like a junji ito rpg sort of thing? i don't like rpg games, but this one looks very fun and i need something i can pick up and put down very easily. i'll buy it later and install it and play it in anthropology class today.
this is getting too long i'm tired. i want to sleep. i cannot sleep yet. oughhh but i want to. just oneeee more class which i haven't done the reading for. it's funny---the professor was like... "we're moving into more contemporary works which i'm sure you're all excited for." no!!!! give me my shitty old books back. i feel like i actually understand the contemporary ones *less*. i'll do fine. surely qwq. OKAY ummm i still haven't thought of names to call you, dear reader. un jour je serai de retour près de toi. wait, that's a fun sign-off!! too much work to repeat every post. and i don't want to appear to be a francophile or something. there's already enough french on this blog. okay. un jour je serai blah blah blah goodbye for meow :D
hello... i didn't think of a name for you yet. hello, you! i was just thinking about how it used to be *warm*. i can't remember that at all. i do actually like the cold---i bundled up a lot today and it was nice except i feel and look a little disheveled. but that's okay. had a Chinese midterm... i think i did... okay??? i feel like i crushed the written part, did okay on the little multiple choice reading response things, and threwwww the listening response because i didn't know THAT was also multiple choice. it's okay. i still have faith i will do good in that class but i was reading Baudelaire earlier and was like... why didn't i just do French?? i'm already like 10% able to read Baudelaire and 0% able to read anything in Chinese.
speaking of reading, i really do want to read more! chatted with someone briefly about some political lit and they seemed pretty knowledgeable and interesting and i actually want to talk to them more about like... random things because they seem nice (predictably, the stalinist took me to the side after our conversation and went "i really don't like them..."). i feel bad because i genuinely can't remember if they are transgender or not because i think it was brought up once and everyone just theythems... them. i really don't think this person goes by theythem exclusively, though!!! hopefully i don't look too horrible here, sob. she is very interesting and next time i encounter her (which neverrrr happens outside of club stuff unfortunately) i will have to talk more because we talked about Lyotard and the cover to Anti-Oedipus and Lukacs and Fisher. i don't think (more accurately, all i can say is that i don't *know* if) she's, like, gaga over all of them, but the fact that she knowsss who these people & things are is very fun and i'd make conversation with her over it even if she hates them JUST because she knows what they are. she probably knows more about them than me!!! also i got to talk about "can dialectics break bricks" for like 5 seconds yesterday LOL which was fun. did not expect people to have seen it but i guess it makes sense! i should rewatch it. my comfort maoist movie.
hm. i put a lot of thought into that and now i can't remember what i was going to say! i kinda like talking about banalities. people loved when Kafka did it. how many times have i seen posts of his journals where he's going They hate me or My stomach hurts or Masturbation frightens me? i need to say more things like this here. i'll talk about music!!! very banal. anyways i messaged EWWW this convenience store sushi is bad. i'm throwing it out after this. anyways. i messaged the drug addict boyfriend who i THINK is clean which is fun about this band i've been obsessed with. they have a very gay name but they're fun. "crimson evenfall"... my name is ebony dark'ness dementia crimson evenfall way... anyways they're a black metal band but they're the kind i like where they seem to only sing about magic and fantasy and hating christians and dorky shit as opposed to... looking and sounding like idiots (war metal, nsbm). a song called "throne of sorcery"? little scandinavian dweebs. they really are so good. i normally hate keyboards in BM as they always sound, just... bad and forced and as if they're included because they're *meant* to be cool. but they're simply not! they're fucking synths!!! despite this view, a few crimson evenfall songs have keyboards, and i feel like they're the *platonic ideal* of what keyboards in BM should be. there's this one called "searching the wisdom" (they're finns, forgive them) and it is actually so crushingly good. it's like four chords on a synth and it's just soooo good. i always feel a little embarrassed being into BM because i feel like the two paths are that you listen to nazi bands, or you're some sort of mass shooter. or both. i also do not want to associate with the nasty angsty sort of internet gen-z BM fans who listen to BSoD and stuff.
short paragraph. i really want to get this game but paypal fucking hates me so i guess i won't :( it seems so cool, too!!! i heard about it a few years ago and it seems to be unchanged since then which is a bit of a bummer because it is a v fun concept and it should continue to get love. it's called "world of horror" and it's like a junji ito rpg sort of thing? i don't like rpg games, but this one looks very fun and i need something i can pick up and put down very easily. i'll buy it later and install it and play it in anthropology class today.
this is getting too long i'm tired. i want to sleep. i cannot sleep yet. oughhh but i want to. just oneeee more class which i haven't done the reading for. it's funny---the professor was like... "we're moving into more contemporary works which i'm sure you're all excited for." no!!!! give me my shitty old books back. i feel like i actually understand the contemporary ones *less*. i'll do fine. surely qwq. OKAY ummm i still haven't thought of names to call you, dear reader. un jour je serai de retour près de toi. wait, that's a fun sign-off!! too much work to repeat every post. and i don't want to appear to be a francophile or something. there's already enough french on this blog. okay. un jour je serai blah blah blah goodbye for meow :D
