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[enterthemirror]

hiii im tired and slightly braindead. i want to sleep but its too early. its wednesdayyy yayyy tomorrow is thursdayyyy then im done for the weekkkkkk hoorayyyy. i have a paper to write :( i should start thinking about it tomorrow :( i actually have TWO papers to write :((((((((( one is due much later than the other so thats good. my fingers smell like cigarettes and i want to put them down somebody's throat. i am so tired sob i want a drink but there is nothinggg fun at my disposal. the best i can do is like. a 3 dollar pepsi. i want a monster energy kinda... had one a few days ago and it was yum and i miss it. tried a "celsius"... made up, evil drink. the monster i had wasn't even my favorite flavor!!! i do really want one. it's so cold out. my head hurts. blehrhfhhhh. therapy was kinda lame it was online (don't like) and i realized i didn't know what i wanted to say (don't like) and i realized i was just saying whatever i could to not talk about suicide the whole time (don't like). at least this person is obligated to listen to me being autistic about things. i haven't gotten my BLADES yet i don't want to bother the mail room to go fetch them for me but i seriously will soon. i haven't thought of where i will actually self harm now. it is too cold to go out and do it somewhere else and that would also be dangerous. but i am also not alone in here. i don't know. bweh . . . i'm so tired qwq. i downloaded this hugeee discography album but it's all out of order and it's too much work to organize it. my head hurts sooo bad tylenol save me. wehfhhhh tylenol save me. i don't want to go to classes tomorrow... OK shut up stop complaining this is getting pathetic. i need to self harm again soon i think it will make me normal. ok. goodbye for meow