ᓚᘏᗢ pt. 2

[enterthemirror]

okay i'm back immediately. theater kids do nottt sleep i can hear them doing... something back there. moving things? assembling things? disassembling? sleeping or fucking or something? (reference) god only knows. anyways it is so dark back here i probably don't even need to lay behind the last row of chairs but i wanna anyways. i can hear the rain outside the fire door back here. i like it a lot. maybe this can be exposure therapy to make me not a wuss! i hear them talking somewhere back there and i am definitely afraid for no good reason. what if they think i'm a weird pervert! they're probably worse perverts. don't theater kids massage each other, or is this a lie i was told? okay what if i contextualize this as me being MORE angsty than the theater kids. if i go "yeah, this is where i go to get away from it all..." they'll understand their inferiority to me. although not all theater kids (to be clear, these people are all legal adults. am i being rude? i do not care smiling emoji) are angsty. some are really gay and chipper. anyways my jacket is now serving as a pillow. multipurpose! i need to shower really bad and walking around with a hood on has made my hair all matted and sad and depressed. writing this little entry is actually very nice. i think it is stopping me from being too emo. what happens when i finish it??? no idea. there's a nice breeze from the exit door. i probably could really sleep here. it's not the most comfortable thing, but i've seen those photos of those horrible monk beds. these jeans are awfully uncomfortable. i will simply deal with it. the people have gotten quieter. what if they snuck up behind me? ok, they didn't. oh my god i just peeked between the chairs and saw a person. there is quite literally no physical way he could have seen me---i am 100% confident that i am using "literally" correctly there---but i am still scared. maybe i can make this more fun by pretending they're all here to find and kill me. they're not doing a very good job. bweh okay i should finish this one up. i am just afraid of the afterwards. okokok i believe in myself. but there was just a noise ough what if they're setting up some awful hideous medieval torture device? i will forge onward and find out dear reader . goodbye for now and maybe goodnight although i expect i may do oneee more post tonight after all this :)