bayonets can be erotic

[enterthemirror]

helloooo good morninggg i have been up for a little bit but i have been too tired to write anything. i got up and brushed my teeth and my roommate is going out to the city again which means i will have the place to myself for a while hooray! i will do nothing with this and instead do everything i normally do but quieter. ough my " stummy" hurts randomly. anyways i slept so soundly!! probably not enough. but after like having such a warm shower i just passed out so quickly my hair didn't have time to dry and now it's like... very weird and gay looking. anyways. yesterday was so weird i remember like when i got into the creepy dark empty building i went into one of the rooms and turned the lights on and there was a random YA book there. so i locked the door and finished the YA book and i think there was like an analogy about mother/daughterhood in there but i am not a mother nor daughter so it probably went over my head. it felt like it was meant to be there though. i couldn't have been on my phone because it would have died. so i just sat there and read this YA book in one sitting. also when i was walking back to my dorm a bunny ran in front of me :) well, walking back to my dorm the first time. is it obvious what i did yesterday? walked to theater > walked to dorm > turned around in front of dorm and walked to creepy dark empty building > walked back to dorm > end. i am glad i didn't sleep in the theater because i needed like ... "self care". also the yogurt is key lime pie which i got at someone else's suggestion and it actually wasn't bad. i am kinda just saying this to see how it sounds, i don't know if i believe it: i think half the time calling something "too sweet" is a made up complaint. i'm not sure if i agree with that sentiment or not yet but there may be a kernel of truth in there. because at first i had a spoonful of yogurt and thought it was too sweet... but i literally don't care. i like sweet things. it was yummy. idk! i don't like very sweet things but maybe i am just making made up complaints. the protein bar things are peanut butter and dark chocolate which makes me feel 100% like a dead dog. they're actually kinda yum though. i only bought a box of 10 because they, like, have a cost to them, but i might actually finish them somewhat quickly. oughhh i want my mail. goldfish... i also had chips and salsa yesterday. good!!! hard to really eat without all the comforts of home (i miss having little ramekins). also there is no dish soap in the kitchen, making washing things very annoying, and if i end up buying it i'm not leaving it down there. it's going to be myyy personal dish soap. i feel like an evil person for that a little. but i'm still doing it. i didn't really have a meal yesterday, just little snacks, but it's better than nothing i think :) i ate when i was hungry and that's good. i'm still very tired. i really do need to work today. i should start that after i finish this but i don't want to. maybe i will work on the script/notes for my presentation and figure out how i'll record it. it is hard to think about presenting it & recording it because i want to kill myself (hashtag joke) and i do not want to go outside today or speak at all so that throws a wrench in that whole thing. anyways i should wrap this uppp probably. ummm bweh why do i forget how to finish these? i feel like i've been reset. putting "depressed" as my mood on here feels analogous to making black and white self harm pictures the cover of a spotify playlist (i knew someone that did this!). okay. maybe i will have a little treat and lay down and figure out what to do for now. thank u for reading chat sorry i mean dear reader goodbye for now :)

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[lesbocannibal]

Hiii it's me Maggie I'm the someone else <3 also i DO think stuff is too sweet sometimes. Weird if you know me at all, but it's especially with stuff like Frosting...