the curse of the consecutive posts

[enterthemirror]

whenever i get on any social media or analogous medium, i way overdo it at the start. two posts in a day?? how sordid!!! i feel like i am obligated to be chatty, though. i'm making the decision not to give myself any interests (currently) because i am afraid of looking lame and that's pretty much it. also i am afraid of people, like, searching for those interests and believing me to be... i dunno. anyways! harping over. something interesting. talking about music feels very blasé, but it's not like i'm a wellspring of insight or anything... i'm also not intimate with this website enough yet to bring up subjects scandalous, ignoble, or iniquitous. sorry, but i'm not maldoror! the dust mites living on the data center hard drive (i don't know what servers, technologically, consist of. it's all computer stuff) will have to wait for anything interesting to come up. okay, one tidbit---i sorta miss being on those parts of the internet where people would, unprompted, talk about having sex with you. it was a little bit of an ego boost! even the bad ones <3 no, put the heart away, i would honestly kill those people. anyways i went into the city today and had my lunch paid for and it wasn't amazing but it was okay. i had a milkshake and it tasted like bananas which i love. i am glad i ate actualll food! i probably could have eaten more today (same as the past few days) but the meal was especially gross and greasy and American so i guess i don't feel as bad as i would on another day. i should watch a movie tonight, but i don't know what. i want to watch something simple and happy and nice! but all the movies i have been writing down to try to see have been awfully artsy, and i think i'm allowed to be sick of that sort of thing. my mood is okay. i think it's been swinging a bit but it's stable enough for me to feel, like, fine and everything. it is not perfect, but i can still work with that :)