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Friday, October 17th, 2025 07:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
enterthemirrorso very sleepy. walked furrr... i don't know how long. probably left at or before 5 and got back likeee 5-10 min ago. i need to do that more i was sooo fucking unbelievably emo when i left but it relaxed me so much. i'm sorta backsliding but during the walk proper it was v nice. the sun was already going down when i left and i should probably not do that because it was near-total darkness on the way back but it was so nice. i saw a little two-person sailboat get put to water or whatever you call it. when i got back they had also just gotten back on land!! so for 2/3rds of my whole walk they were out on some little miniature lake or oversized pond or whatever. i think that's a nice thought.
off-topic observation. i think my early warning system for me being emo (also i've never established. "me being emo" is shorthand for "I'd like to kill myself") is if i start having like absolutely insane thoughts on sex. thankfully i nipped them in the bud by going out and "touching grass" which apparently actually works?!??! anyways i won't elaborate qwq but i am documenting my observation for further analysis.
anyways. the terminus of my journey ended up being a kinda shitty sandwich/pizza place. i go in and place my order and have a soda because i like soda but never let myself drink it (how else am i meant to be as elated as that little german boy?). i gettt my order (really bad "greek" chicken wrap) and they kinda just... walk away... back to the kitchen... and i kinda just... leave without paying... so the journey was worth it even though the wrap was not good. maybe i'll make it a habit! i don't want to go out again today because i am so sleepy and i know i shouldn't let myself end up getting emo again but i have been in the presence of my roommate for like two minutes total and it's already grating. sooo we will see. bleh it's not even 8 and i have no idea what to do. movie, maybe? blehhh i wish i was out still. i am going to try and relax but roommate may end up driving me out. omnomnom im eating protein bar. okay dear reader i will try to make this my last post of the night. goodbye for meow :)
off-topic observation. i think my early warning system for me being emo (also i've never established. "me being emo" is shorthand for "I'd like to kill myself") is if i start having like absolutely insane thoughts on sex. thankfully i nipped them in the bud by going out and "touching grass" which apparently actually works?!??! anyways i won't elaborate qwq but i am documenting my observation for further analysis.
anyways. the terminus of my journey ended up being a kinda shitty sandwich/pizza place. i go in and place my order and have a soda because i like soda but never let myself drink it (how else am i meant to be as elated as that little german boy?). i gettt my order (really bad "greek" chicken wrap) and they kinda just... walk away... back to the kitchen... and i kinda just... leave without paying... so the journey was worth it even though the wrap was not good. maybe i'll make it a habit! i don't want to go out again today because i am so sleepy and i know i shouldn't let myself end up getting emo again but i have been in the presence of my roommate for like two minutes total and it's already grating. sooo we will see. bleh it's not even 8 and i have no idea what to do. movie, maybe? blehhh i wish i was out still. i am going to try and relax but roommate may end up driving me out. omnomnom im eating protein bar. okay dear reader i will try to make this my last post of the night. goodbye for meow :)
