my corpse loves you, let's marry

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i remember when i thought The Monochrome Set were the best band in the world. on re-listening... they're still pretty fun :) the best? surely not. but pretty fun. very tired. kinda... bleh... i'm not sure how i feel. i am glad i purchased some new things for myself but i can't get too excited lest i spend more money.

i am listening to music because my roommate seems to listen to music designed to bother me. look: i try very hard to *not* fall into the trap that is so easy to fall into. it is very alluring to vehemently hate pop music because there's hardly any good examples of it, but i will readily admit you *are* a bit of a dick for doing that even if on some base level i agree. i can't do all this posturing when my roommate was unironically listening to "love yourself" by justin bieber. i won't get on the biebs hate train as we all should know by now that was just a way for teen boys on the internet to get back at pre-teen girls for existing--but surely i am allowed to admit this is music that kills your brain? i do feel angsty for saying it but it's true. i really do think top 10 radio hits are terrorist devices.

i should be working but i did so much work today. 魏老师 always looks at me so tenderly and is like... 达思... your homework... i've already done a lot of it. i still have a lot left to do. but it's fine. It is all fine serene person with halo emoji. i finished my midterm and i don't really know who to talk to about it because i don't yet know any other philosophy people. even in the one class i'm taking, since they're all upperclassmen or grad students or something. hopefully next semester i will meet more philosophy people... i don't really want to take another intro class, but it wouldn't even be a bad idea since the last one i took was barely a class. i did love that guy though. i should send the professor of that class an email some time. anyways! the gist of it is that i tried connecting hegel + fichte to wittgenstein. i think it'll go over... okay! not a perfect (or even good) essay by many metrics but i think i came up with a novel idea that probably nobody else in the class did so hopefully i at LEAST get props for that. i need to meet continental people... i cannot do analytic.

okay. i don't really know what to do. i have felt veryyy weird for the past few days. simultaneously so tired and so hyperactive. it just flipflops all the time and i don't like it!!! anyways anyways. i have some things to look forward to coming in the mail which is always fun, so hopefully i will be a littleee grounded for the next few days as i wait for them. it is going to be so cold now--i'm glad i got gloves, but i fear i need a new jacket... i don't know what a cute jacket even consists of!!! sweaters are too gay--i wear them sparingly. i like jackets but i feel like the ones i currently own are too slacker-adjacent, and i am (mostly) out of that brief period of my life. we'll see what i do. i need to relax... i feel a little wound up for no reason, sob. i mean qwq. goodnight for meow everyone :)

okay, wait, i never cut myself off but i will briefly. short paragraph i promise!!! i feel like i should be barking instead of meowing. i like meows... they feel a little more demure. a bark is very loud and like in your face and i am not like that. but i also think i am a barker? but the noises i would be making would not be barks. like when a dog barks i think i feel the same way it does but i wouldn't be barking i'd be doing something else. does this make sense? okay. goodnight for meow ... ... ... did you expect me to type out a bark? of course i wouldn't do that. bye dear reader